Just One More Page Please

Just One More Page Please

19 october 2017

jp melville

Just one more page - please

I am at wit’s end

The last white sheets of my diary done.

Before I’m finished

I’m wishing for an eulogy

Wondering what it means to bring life to end.

Like closing of a love story

No happy ending here

Broken hearts, sadnesses, lost connections, emptinesses.

Is it time to sleep, rest

Empty mind and heart

No space left to fill again.

On cliff top where I stand

With face turned to the wind

Autumn speaks to me here

I look out the sky begins to overcast

The yellows, reds, browns of forest leaves

Shivering their end to a season.

Though the forest calls

I’ve here but a day

I must to the city go

Travelling far too much a week and people beckon

So if to the city I must go

I  must come back again

Soon

Because I am empty

And not yet refreshed.

Oh my, how love and love lost are so exhausting

Blown away in gusting wind.

So for a moment more I still stand

Here on a forest edge

Expecting to be cleansed

Breathe deep

Breathe deep my soul

Patience, be still.

To accept the end in return I offer

One prayer

In exchange I accept autumn here.

But face the end I cannot

For my story begs a blank white sheet

Just one more page - please.